SO NOW’S A
BIG REFLECTION AND LOOK BACK ON WHAT I’VE LEARNED THIS YEAR
As far as college goes, I still don’t have any top picks or
first choices in my mind, sad I know. I
have managed to come up with a list of schools that I will be applying to
however… I think. I still have to read
up on some a little more, actually a lot more, but that’s all part of the
process. Off the top of my head, I like
Washington, Oregon, UCSB, UCLA, Santa Clara, UC Berkeley, USD, Gonzaga, USC,
and Wyoming. Though this year may have
taught me a lot about picking schools and opened my eyes a little, I’m still a
little bit of a lost cause you might say. So I might as well do as I’ve been
doing so far and just wing it.
As far as work goes and what professions I am considering,
that also remains a bit unknown. There’s
just so much to do and so little time to do it, and I know I realistically I
can’t do it all so eventually I’ll have to narrow it down to something, but I don’t
want that to be soon. I want to have a
lot of money and I want to have a lot of fun making money, but that seems hard. I would love to be a pediatrician, and an
architect, and an actuary, and a sports analyst, and much more, but sadly I can’t
do it all. All I do is hope that when the time comes, and it sure is coming
quick, I decide to do something I love and can see myself doing for a long time,
even if I don’t have a single clue what it is now.
And lastly as far as life goes, it just goes…on…and on…and
on. I feel like I’m just going through
the motions with everything I do now and I feel that something big has to
change. Even after all the memories and experiences from this whole year, both
good and bad, I don’t know if I’ve learned anything new. I’m still stuck at the same place I was when
the year began, and I don’t even know if I like it or not. Now that this school year is pretty much over,
I can say that it still left me pretty clueless about everything and what I intend
to do or how I intend to do it, whatever it even is. I go through life day after day not really
expecting anything huge to happen or change, but thinking that something, even
if it’s a small thing, should be different than it was the day before. But hey I guess that’s my road block right
there. Maybe I just get so caught up
with the little things in life that I lose sight of the big picture…. I don’t know. I don’t know a lot of things. But what I do know is that I’m just gonna
keep movin’ on, no matter where life takes me (around the world if I’m lucky). See ya guys (:
"I want to have a lot of money and I want to have a lot of fun making money, but that seems hard." Wow I can certainly relate to that. I can also understand your problem with being indecisive. This blog assignment has really helped me figure out what I SORTA want to do, however I'm still not sure. I'm glad I'm not the only one. I stand with you brother.
ReplyDeleteYou and I are in the same boat. It's funny because I think we spent more time thinking about our 'reflection' post than we did on all the others. I was actually kind of excited to write mine, and I have a feeling you were too because this is the kind of stuff we talk about on a daily basis. Completely agree with you when you say "I go through life day after day not really expecting anything huge to happen or change, but thinking that something, even if it’s a small thing, should be different than it was the day before." Man that's exactly what we live by hahaha. We don't have to worry about the big picture til later, we just have to live at the moment..yolo.
ReplyDeleteErik, I wouldnt worry about still not knowing what college you're thinking of attending of what you're thinking of majoring in, even though im pretty sure that was the only point of these blogs. You are a man of last minute excellence. Whatever you choose to do and whenever you choose to do it, it will be a brilliant choice and it will make you happy. I can guruntee that. damnit how do you spell garuntee...
ReplyDeleteI admire the poignant honesty of this post. Don't put too much pressure on yourself to have all the answers right now. Don't think of it as finding the "right" career & college; think of it as the "right now" college. What's the best fit for your life and journey at this moment?
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate to your feeling of being "stuck". You have no idea. It's a tremendously frustrating feeling. All I can suggest is exploration. Look into anything and everything until a spark leaps in your heart. Follow that spark as far as you possibly can. Don't worry about the money, the prestige, the location. Just search.
If you'd like to talk to someone who's been on that search for the better part of two years, you know where to reach me.